Maybe I don’t get it either…

I’m thoroughly convinced Lifetime would buy the movie rights to my life now… that or someone who writes modern plays in the form of Shakespear tragedies.

I actually slept last night… for 9+ hours even (which is a bad thing… my alarm didn’t go off so I was 3 hours late to work today which makes being late 2 days in a row). I’m not sure why I slept though… exhaustion from almost 4 days of not or something else.

I got the answer to a question last night that I stopped asking. Some things I was sure of no longer have a foundation. Some things that were clear as mud are like spring water. I have questions I don’t want to ask and answers to questions that won’t be asked. I have a decision to make that I already made and I don’t know how that came undone. I know what I “should” do, but don’t know what I want to do and I’m not sure I have the strength to do either right now.

I’ve been able to (somewhat) predict everything thats happened up till now. I may not have done anything about it, but for the most part I expected everything that’s happened to happen… until the last 2 days. I don’t think I’ve ever been caught so off guard in my life. Which is why I can’t decide anything. I don’t know whats going on right now and I don’t know what the truth is anymore. I can make a guess… but thats all it is… a shot in the dark.

Let the flaming begin [at least I know what all of you think about it].