12-Jun-2007

When the dust has settled and the dark receded… When the torrent has stopped and the waves smoothed into glass… When the lightning goes dim and night sky is crystal clear… what do you think about?

I have had a very interesting four years in college. I’ve experienced more than most in life and academia… perhaps my social life is wanting, but I’m ok with that. Although I’m not graduating, the end of this year seems like the end of a very long chapter in my life… for a lot of reasons. I’m finding it very ironic that I don’t actually care about the grades I earned this quarter even though it is only the second time in college I received a perfect 4.0.  That is not to say that I wouldn’t have been disappointed had I gotten a 3.5 or something like that… but my priorities in life are realigning themselves to something entirely new.

My walk with God has changed a lot in the last couple of years. If I had to pick something to thank (or even appreciate) Alex for it would be that. She started me on path that led me to where I am now… maybe not exactly where I should be but I am a lot better off than I was 2 years ago. I find the more I talk to others seriously about how my life has progressed I see that a lot of things couldn’t have happened any other way and that I’m pretty close to where God wants me. For the first time since I can remember, every part of my life (except for money… but w/e) is tranquil and some are excited in a very good way. I don’t have any hidden conflicts, everyone knows the truths they should, and I am ok with myself… which is not something I’ve often been able to say.

I’m leaving for North Carolina in 4 days… I’m a lot better with the idea now. I certainly won’t be happy to be away from Theresa, but I’m not exactly afraid of it either now. Three months isn’t that long and if we aren’t able to cope with that we probably have other issues we haven’t discovered yet. Absence makes the heart grow fonder right? We’ll survive, if not be stronger for it. I’ve also managed to work out a trip back north at the end of July just before I go to Dallas so I can see everyone (Dad, Tara, and Matthew included of course) which makes the internship less daunting.

Update on my car… $2100 in damages. They have to replace all of my front lighting, the front fender, the radiator shield, the right front quarter panel, the right front control arm and most likely both front ball joints, and the right air intake; they have to repair one of the oil lines, the right rear quarter panel, a fair amount of wiring and part of the exhaust… That is all that I can remember just thinking about it and all of that is not considering aesthetic repairs like scratches to the body, rims, and gravel guard… Fortunately I don’t have to pay for any of it and neither does my insurance. The other driver’s insurance took liability for the accident (thank God) saving me a $500 deductible and an increase in insurance rates. I should hopefully have the car back by Friday… if I don’t I get to drive a Pontiac Vibe to NC and figure out later how to get my own car back.

P.S. I went to get suits yesterday for my internship… $600 later I look pretty good in a suit.