12-Sep-2006

I’ve said this before, and probably not too long ago, but I hate being right. Everyone says I see something where nothing exists or I’m just reading too much into a situation… but they always fail to explain how I’m right in the end. My hope isn’t pointless or based on some idiosyncratic fault in my personality (well, the latter might be partially true but not how people would generally envision it)… it is because I know myself well and I know the people around me well and I know some people better than I know myself and for some unholy reason there are times when I can see inside some peoples’ heads as clearly as I can my own. As much as some people deny me when I ask them questions, with some people I’m always right. I’m beating a dead horse in so many ways and probably several of them, but my reality “is what it is”. I’m going in circles again (for anyone who remembers the imagery over a year ago)… eventually I’ll go left. I kind of have to. Damned troll…

Reader beware: new topic… just to lazy to make a second post for the day.

Mindless drones… no sense of humor, no sense of fun, they barely have reasons to life their lives. Working here is seriously like watching an aunt hill or termite nest. They’re busy because that is what they are programmed to do. Almost everyone at this company does just enough to not be fired. As a friend of mine pointed out… the difference in yearly raises between someone who exceeds all expectations and someone who barely meets expectations is about .3% That’s between $250 and $400 – over an entire year -. There is no incentive to do more especially since most managers are contractors that were originally hired as consultants so the chances of getting that high are near nothing. It is really sad that doing what I genuinely like to do is leading me into a profession (or rather a workplace) that I despise about as much as left wing Hispanic immigrants in California seem to hate Bush.