Many thanks…

I thank you for those who sent my grandfather your thoughts and prayers. It was bacterial pneumonia, which while not being a good thing is significantly better than the almost certain death of congestive heart failure. The doctors gave my grandfather every anti-biotic they have and he is improving. No guarantees of course, but I think we all get another chance.

Now I can deal with my dad, or rather not deal with my dad. Apparently it is my fault that Theresa’s mom invited mine to Easter dinner without my knowledge and completely without my help and that somehow also translates into rage against me… I’ll grant him that I completely avoided telling him of the situation, but he has to acknowledge that had I told him the situation would have been worse (in a different way) in that he would have complained about my mother to me for hours which he knows angers me to no end. I’m not entirely sure how to deal with this. I’m normally ok with (even if its grudgingly) trying to make things right with him… but this time I did nothing to bring this myself (usually I have some hand in the problems he has with me). Out of sheer anger I was ready to just not talk to him and completely avoid any contact, but that would just make this worse… At the same time I can not capitulate when there is no cause for his anger towards me (thats not to say I don’t understand his anger, but it is directed at the wrong person).

One day I’ll be able to live without some catastrophe bearing down on me… Yes yes… melodramatic… At least I don’t act like I’m 4.