16-Nov-2007

I’ve opened this damned window about thirty times in the last week… but for some reason my mind goes into a deep freeze every time.

I’ve decided to accept Cisco’s offer so this time next year I’ll be off somewhere much warmer. Although, thats only about 90% certain. The Cisco offer isn’t iron clad and actually allows me to terminate any time since the benefits don’t happen until I actually start. Sadly… this decision hasn’t taken any of the stress away. I still have a lot to think about and some decisions to make and I’m going little nuts about it.

People keep telling me to “let God decide” or to “just give it to God”. I guess I have no conception of what that really means. God isn’t going to descend from Heaven flanked by all the angels just to put my life on track. I understand it all in the metaphorical and spiritual sense but the idea doesn’t translate well for me…