I’m still here

Making a post has been hard as of late. Not because I have nothing to say, because it is hard to come to terms with some things.

Living in NC last summer gave me some insights into how hard living away from everything I know might be, but I think the knowledge that I’d be going back home colored the experience and certainly made it easier to cope. Now, NC is my home. It isn’t like I have no hope of ever getting back to Ohio, but I also know I’m not going for an extended stay any time soon. I probably said this last summer too, but it is hard to deal with having absolutely no one around. I have nothing to do when I get home from work, I try to make my errands take as long as possible on the weekends and just in general surround myself with people even if I don’t know them. I’ve tried to (subtly) get some of the guys from the choice program to go out after work or similar but three of them are married and the other is from Raleigh and none seem to interested. I’m sure I’ll eventually meet some people to be friends with, at least I hope I do, but in the mean time things a pretty depressing. Most of all I miss Theresa. I’m sure that isn’t exactly a shock to anyone, but given that this is also more than a year later… It is quite different than it was last summer.

Through the summer, Theresa said I was starting to pay an almost unhealthy amount of attention to the (sensationalist) news… obviously with all the extra time I have that hasn’t exactly changed and I’m becoming as disenfranchised as she is. Power is everything to politicians. Keeping that power seems to be paramount to everything else. Congress has sat on our energy crisis for months. This week the house finally passed a bipartisan bill to allow drilling and provide funding for alternative sources of energy, but all of the pundits say it will be stalled in the Senate until after November 4th for fear that any success on any major issue will give credence to the current administration. Apparently forcing an ultra-liberal government onto the people is more important than solving or at least helping with their problems. Now, Congress as a whole is putting together a $700+ billion package to buy out bad mortgages. Democrats are now beating their drum to both sides of this bill saying it must include money for the millions of Americans who took the loans. On the surface, that sounds like a great idea, except with a multi-hundred billion dollar deficit already couple with several large bank bail-outs, who the hell is going to pay for it? On top of that… Obama thinks that even with this package in place he can still wedge an [effective] tax increase and publicly controlled health care on the American people. I’m veering off point now… but I’m quite sick of this. I know our economy is on bad times and that there are far too many people who don’t have proper coverage… but where do the hand-outs end? More importantly, when do politicians set aside the grabs for power for the greater good?