“In a sea of despair.” The imagry is about right anyway.

Its funny that he talked about grief and the chores of Christianity yesterday… I was annoyed and thought it was pointless at first… but not so much today.

Imagine for a moment the person you hold closest telling you something that could hurt you like no other words or actions could… something that hurts more than anything any other person could say or do. Imagine the things you would think and want to do… the proper or at least natural response to such a moment. Then imagine having to act normal and even happy because the people around you couldn’t (or wouldn’t) understand… because they would only judge you and tell you its not worth it. Finally, imagine being locked up staring at the ceiling for hours and not being able to let any of it out because no one is there to listen. If you can do that then you might catch a glimpse of what I feel right now. If the same has happened to you… I’m very sorry.