Life is messy. I can’t think of any other way to put it without sounding ridiculously pessimistic.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately… well… I usually think a lot so I suppose I should say I’ve been thinking about things I don’t typically think about.

I am oddly distracted lately by life. Obviously, its about to hit me like a freight train and I’m getting a weird feeling about moving away. I don’t know how to prepare for moving away from my family and friends, worse, I don’t think I can prepare to move away from Theresa. Dad Martin (yes, I call him dad) gave me an observation: many marriages fail because couples invest their identities in something other than each other (I’m rewording and paraphrasing…). I thought for a while that I could be whole on my own, that if Theresa somehow just went away I’d be ok. As my graduation looms closer, I feel a tugging on my heart that I find very hard to explain and I know before very long it wont just hurt to be away from her.

Please pray for Theresa’s family. They will need it as they get some medical tests back this week.