Are you happy now?

I don’t look mean in my picture anymore… although, I think I only ever got 2 complaints about the previous.

Thanksgiving was pretty amazing this year… and all because I made pies that turned out to be pretty good. Of course thats a joke, but I did make some pretty good pies. The rest of my long weekend turned out to be kinda cruddy, but I’ll take what I can get anymore, especially when I actually got a good night’s rest (even if it was only one night).

I don’t feel right…

Its a shame this place only exists in my dreams…

… that dream has long escaped me.

Ok… so I am crazy… what of it.

Another week… another way for God to mock me. A team of world class seamtresses couldn’t hem fast enough to put this back together. Is it because I actually try to be a good person instead of just going with what ever is going on around me (actually… thats kind of an unfair question at the moment… but I did technically stop what ever it was that was happening — thats ambiguous mostly because I don’t know what it was that I stopped)? And if any of you think that is over dramatic… I beg you to call me and ask what happened, you’ll probably think I’m being reserved.

I’m starting to think a Shakespearian style tragedy on Lifetime wouldn’t do my life justice. Quite honesly, I don’t think there is any form of theatrical entertainment that could capture the true nature and meaning in my life (if there is meaning, an idea which has been fading quickly for sometime). I’m still alive, let that be comfort to you all.

I’m not crazy…

just a lunatic.

And so the circle begins again… although it was much shorter lived this time around <= I’ll give you a cookie if you can figure that out… and you don’t count Keith. I do take consolation out of actually being right… its better than being proven to be dellusional… although the method wasn’t so happy so I might end up a dellusional wreck anyway. I will say that I’m becomming suprisingly resiliant to some things (which I might add is definitely a bad thing).

The last week has been interesting… I could use so many other words there but I think “interesting” is the most encompasing. A most unexpected event (one that I can’t exactly say publically because of implications for someone else) caused my logical half to temporarily cease functioning. Aside from the massive confusion and 36 hours of no sleep, what happened really should have been a good thing, but not surprisingly I did (or didn’t do) something that screwed it up. It might (and probably isn’t) my fault, but I don’t really have anyone else to blame and now for a third time, I’ve not only lost a friend (who I seem to lose and find with high frequency) but a relationship (ok… this time it wasn’t really a relationship… but still). The timing of this is always oh so fun.

The quarter is starting to come to a close… I hope the end is not as miserable as the beginning and middle.

Thanks Jo… I’m bored too.

I don’t think I like the idea that I’m classified as a “Nerd God”… and I’m quite curious how knowing the chemical symbols for Manganese and Beryllium acutally calssifies me as a nerd.