Soy cansado, soy dolorido, y deseo desaparecer

Voy a ir loco… o ya soy. No se cuanto mas puedo tomar. Oy… acentos estupidos de Espanol…

Lots more homework this weekend… only I wasn’t quite prepared for it. I thought it would take a lot less time than it did and consequently waited too long to do it. On a slightly worse note, I have about 30% understanding of the current class material. I pray the rest of the class is on par with me.

Believe it or not… that’s all the “woe is me” you get today. Things are actually pretty good, minus my current lack in spare time, but that will be over soon.

I’m debating on if I should ask someone out to dinner. I almost did but I wimped out. There is a good reason for that… one that I shall keep locked away in a deep dark hole unless I actually do ask… which I’ll have plenty of opportunities to do so.

Since my summer is wide open and I’m going to have a lot of money to play with I’m working on some plans. My mom wants to go on a cruise or just goto one of the Caribbean Islands. I’m gonna see if I can get her to take a bunch of people too. This might be my last summer where I’m not bound to a full time career and I might as well go some place fun and spend a lot of money (albeit it may not be mine). QuakeCON may not happen this summer… or at least not for me. I need to plan my trip to Dallas and the Carribian to be around the same time as to not piss off AEP a lot and ID Software hasn’t issued a date or location yet… in that case I might just double my vacation. My friends who want to go are limited to about a week so I might take a second and go backpacking somewhere (not in the Americas though).

I have to go into Wyadot for at least 8 hours this week. Corporate decided they wanted to do our POS upgrades the week before opening. The fun part… they’re only updating 1 or 5… I get to replicate that to the rest (as well as fix what ever they mess up on the client and server). Oh Oh!!! DELL SUCKS! The GX270 apparently has a problem where the capacitors supporting the CPU fan burst and ooze all over the motherboard. The oozing description is only for imagery… the board would already have been dead.

Ehh… I’m tired of typing. I’ll post more later… ish.

Oh hey Ben… “QUACK!”

Will this never end?

I’ve spent 8 hours today doing homework and sadly I’m not quite finished. I did 1 section in linear algebra and 5 in numerical methods. I still have to read 2 chapters for AI, study for databasing and econ (have midterms in both) and do a homework for AI. Yippie!

“What I need… is a change of scenery”

But how far should I go? I might start looking at internships in New York, Chicago, Miami, Huston and San Diego. I feel like can’t stay here anymore. Its driving me insane. Knowing what I know, feeling what I feel, wanting what I want, being who I am. I’m not meant to be here. I feel like I’m shackled so tightly I can barely move inside a very small cage where I can see the outside world flying by but there isn’t a damn thing I can do. Soon enough, days turn into weeks… weeks turn into months… months turn into years and I’ve progressed no where and done little to be proud of. How can I enjoy my life when I’m too busy preparing for it? Hell, how can I enjoy it when my thoughts are consumed by things that have no business being there and only serve to torment me while I sleep?

This might just as well be my doing since I talked about it a few days ago… but the worst recurring nightmare I’ve ever had in my life (the one the leaves me ice cold, wet, and stiff as a 6 foot wooden plank) came back. I’m actually afraid to sleep at the moment.

At least I can say I have a 3.9 GPA in engineering right?