“Should I die before I wake…”

I was embarrassingly drunk on Friday… unfortunately, I remember the entire night too. I think I owe apologies to Jen and Becky (don’t know who Becky is though… but I have a picture of her on my phone). Saturday… well, it was a late start. I woke up around 630a and dealt with a queasy stomach for a few hours. I got a hold of Keith around 10 and he carted me around to run errands for 3 hours since my car was left at Capital the night before. Started moving stuff around 2pm… watched a good amount of the OSU game… finished moving stuff close to 7. Keith, March, and myself went to see Crank Saturday night which is an amazing movie. I found out Sunday that Time Warner can’t install until the 14th… my life is ruined (that’s mostly a joke).

The epic story of my life continues. I don’t understand myself at the moment so how could anyone else.

Faith.

The song isn’t good, so if you’ve heard it just forget that 3 minutes of your life for a moment… the point is the lyrics.

This won’t be fun…

Who wants to come keep me company… I just realized I have 2 weeks in my new place alone after I move this weekend.

I astound myself…

If you know my ego… that’s actually rather hard.

Thank you… someone finally just listened to me. I know it was hard to not say anything… I saw it in your face, but it helped.

When is something final?

fi‧nal  /ˈfaɪnl/
–adjective
1.    pertaining to or coming at the end; last in place, order, or time: the final meeting of the year.
2.    ultimate: The final goal is world peace.
3.    conclusive or decisive: a final decision.
4.    constituting the end or purpose: a final result.
5.    pertaining to or expressing the end or purpose: a final clause.

Leaves no room for doubt or second thoughts… and every one of those thoughts spawns a new regret. I’ve never left anything regretting how it ended (doesn’t mean I liked how things went). I usually can get a solemn peace knowing what I did was best for *someone*. In the end this hurts everyone… but I don’t have anything else to do.

I’ll try to have more thoughts tomorrow. Sleep is again eluding me, I missed dinner last night so I’ve had no energy today, and I think I’m getting sick… probably symptomatic of the above, but I’m still not all here.