Some of God’s greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.

I still have lots of questions and am still thoroughly confused, but I’ll take what I can get.

I got to talk to her today! It was really unfortunate timing though. I had a co-op/intern lunch in Gahana today so I couldn’t talk long when she called, but I have her phone number now and I can call!

5-Jul-2006

I am absolutely ecstatic… I haven’t felt this good in far too long! I haven’t slept in 4 days (minus a small nap last night and 2 days ago) so I’m sure some of this is just lucidity, but there is only one thing that can ruin my mood (ignoring unforeseeable tragedies) and that isn’t going to happen.

Are you ready for this? I found my sister! After 3 years of stalkerish research (without knowing where to search), I found her. Ok… so I don’t think I’ve ever posted about this so I’ll give a little background. When I was 6, a girl came to my door on Christmas Eve and asked to see her dad. I don’t think its hard to imagine that a 6 year old was more than confused. It was a sore spot with my mom so my brother and I were sent to our rooms and the girl was gone the next morning without any explanation. When I was 16 or so, my cousin Jill let it slip that I had a half sister and thats who the girl at the door was. So, shortly after I left for college, I started a search for her. It wasn’t anything very strong, just people searches and property and phone searches. About 2 months ago, I got some of my aunts to ask my dad about my sister and I found out she had aunts and uncles in Ohio. When I got home from Memorial Day weekend I immediately started searching for them in the last locations my dad knew them to be in. I found 2 uncles, 1 in Ohio and 1 in LA. Unfortunately neither of them answered their phones for a few weeks and the one in Ohio didn’t have an answering machine. Well, my dad was down last night to visit and he got me interested again so I ran a property search for all of Deleware county on just the last name (originally I ran it with the first name or the uncle too). This time I found one of my sisters aunts, who did answer the phone. I had a misconception about what some records meant (I don’t know tax law) but I did get to talk to her for like half an hour. Turns out that my sister lives in the greater Columbus area. She isn’t in Ohio right now, she’s in CA visiting her grandmother, but she comes back tonight and I should hopefully get to talk to her tomorrow.

Still more along with that… I’m an uncle to a 4 year old boy! I don’t know any more than that other than my sister used to live in Hawaii and is married, both of which are reasons I wasn’t able to just find her originally.

There is also other news completely aside from all of the above “helping” in my mood today. Although, I’m not really sure whats going on.

Edit: what the deuce? You can rate your content??? Does it allow for internet filtering anyone know?

Confusion is key…

I think I’ve created a giant mess for myself. I’m sure most of my friends will be “happy” with me since I’ve decided not to wait around any longer… but all the same I don’t know what will happen if I do ever get an answer.

Today was kind of sad. I wish I was able to do what I had been planning, but that wasn’t exactly possible.

We’re all still here…

Although… I suppose 666 is still going on somewhere for another 19 hours…

Cryptic thought for the day… The truth is enough to drive you insane.

“When He broke open the sixth seal…”

“I looked, and there was a great earthquake; and the sun grew black as
sackcloth of hair, the moon became like blood. And the stars of the sky dropped to the earth like a fig tree
shedding its unripe fruit out of season when shaken by a strong wind. And the sky rolled up like a scroll and vanished, and every mountain and island was dislodged from its place. Then
the kings of the earth and their noblemen and their magnates and their
military chiefs and the wealthy and the strong and
slave or free hid themselves in the caves and among the rocks of the
mountains, And
they called to the mountains and the rocks, Fall on (before) us and
hide us from the face of Him Who sits on the throne and from the deep-seated indignation and wrath of the Lamb. For the great day of His wrath (vengeance, retribution, indignation) has come, and who is able to stand before it?” No being in creation nor body of heaven or hell. All will lay down for Him.

For all you doomsayers out there… kiss my ass… the world isn’t ending today.

I had an amazing amount of fun yesterday. Despite the fact that I had 2 midterms today (still 1 to go and 1 tomorrow) I was out with Rebecca from 4 till almost 11 (after studying for econ for a few hours).

My finals have thus far been incredibly kind to me. I’d been expecting a freakishly hard week, but so far its been a breeze. Maybe that 150 hours of homework and labs was actually worth something…. probably not.

Adios… I’m off to my Econ final… if there is any final that I could possibly underestimate, it would be this one. Econ is so completely worthless.